This Night of Breaking Heart

As I watched him pull out his boarding pass and look hopefully into my eyes.. I was fighting hard, with every thing I had, not to let the tears swelling in my eyes pour down my face. I haven't said Goodbye in so long, in so many years.. After everything.. it seems that I've forgotten how. It was a very difficult day, to watch the guy I love fly away.. I fled back to the elevators, then to my car and cried so hard. I cried when I scanned my ticket while leaving, I cried crossing the bridge. I cried all. the. way. home. 

I hate being 1000 miles from him. My heart aches for all the men and women that have to endure this regularly. There is no way I am strong enough for this. I cannot wait until he is home. 

 

October 04, 2010

In this world of unknown and uncertainty, there is one thing I know that will last for eternity. It brings me hope for others in pain to have something so beautifully insane. 

Our love could run wild through universe after universe. Sailing the stars. 

The only thing that brings me unbearable, excruciating pain is not knowing if I will be able to touch his face after our existence here is over. The human life span is not long enough for all the time I need with him.

We have adventures to take on 

experiences to try on

mistakes to learn from

love to pass on.

We could conquer this world hand in hand.

Live your Life

This weekend consisted of: 

Probably the best seafood pasta I've ever had.. Father-Son Comparisons, Sweet Tea, pretty little girls with pretty pink nails, shopping for luggage, non-planned Cracker Barrel run-in's, delicious Orange Cream Soda, Myla and Koda's first beach trip and pirate costumes .. 

What a wonderful life we live.

     

This evening at Target, as the school supplies isle reeled me in, Josh pointed out to me that I have an unnatural addiction to the collection of agendas and day planners. This is my newest one :o)