The Sea of Hopes and Dreams

In the past few months I have felt more alive than the past few years. I truly feel the power of God working in all angles of my existence. We go through different trials to show us, or perhaps even remind some of us, what each of our blessings are. The Lord is the ultimate provider without which I know I wouldn't have anything today. 

I am thankful for learning this. 

With that said, the past few months have perhaps been some of my most favorite yet. I understand now that all I need is my family and friends. October was filled with corn fields, sunflowers, pumpkin patches, baby laughs, trick-or-treating, pumpkin carving, apple cider, costume hunting, parties and more.

I almost felt at times I was standing on the outside looking in. Observing the extraordinary, but "extra - ordinary" life that I live. Watching the small things that in reality are very huge things. I love my life, my God, my family, my friends and the happiness I have found within them all.

Letters

Something I found cleaning out the old Mac..

Letters to you;

December 3, 2011

Dearly Beloved, 

We are in no way, shape or form gathered here today to witness the spell bounding love that has been built upon the last 2,602 days we’ve confessed ourselves to one another. Well, shall I speak for only myself when I say that.. 

Instead 2,602 days later I am hoping for one last shred of evidence that love still exists between us. Is the only thing pulling us together the financial security and informal closeness between us? More than anything do I want to close all open gaps between us. Become intertwined in every earthly, spiritual and scientific way possible. I want the love I have with you to be something fawned upon by onlookers and hoped for by the casualties of heartbreak. Now something I seem to be struggling with is the knowledge of your intentions; whether they be cruel, captivating or mutual. 

One thing that is for certain is that I want to love you. I want and in every way, need a connection with you.  A connection that we have not yet seen in our lives. I felt that was already achieved but little did I know there is more. More then to ever be imagined. Your fingerprints cover my soul. 

It’s like drowning I would imagine. Having the breathe, the life, pulled out of you. In those final seconds, seeing everything that made your life special flash before your eyes. Scanning through the images, hoping and praying to God, and afraid of loosing everything. Out of 7 billion people, I chose you and you chose me. 

I fear that this may be the end of something that would have been one of a kind. A genuine love that many of us are unable to find with each other. Something that would have been magical and free to run wild under the stars.

8 Years, 8 Years

Wow..

What can I say? Today marks 8 years of love, laughter, tears and joy with my wonderful beloved, Josh.


8 years.

I still can't believe how much we've made it through, how much we've conquered and experienced... yet there is still so much! It excites me, excites me beyond words. I cannot wait to begin spending the rest of my life with you.

I love you, I've always loved you and I will always love you.

Higher then the sky.

Forever and ever and always.