Letters

Something I found cleaning out the old Mac..

Letters to you;

December 3, 2011

Dearly Beloved, 

We are in no way, shape or form gathered here today to witness the spell bounding love that has been built upon the last 2,602 days we’ve confessed ourselves to one another. Well, shall I speak for only myself when I say that.. 

Instead 2,602 days later I am hoping for one last shred of evidence that love still exists between us. Is the only thing pulling us together the financial security and informal closeness between us? More than anything do I want to close all open gaps between us. Become intertwined in every earthly, spiritual and scientific way possible. I want the love I have with you to be something fawned upon by onlookers and hoped for by the casualties of heartbreak. Now something I seem to be struggling with is the knowledge of your intentions; whether they be cruel, captivating or mutual. 

One thing that is for certain is that I want to love you. I want and in every way, need a connection with you.  A connection that we have not yet seen in our lives. I felt that was already achieved but little did I know there is more. More then to ever be imagined. Your fingerprints cover my soul. 

It’s like drowning I would imagine. Having the breathe, the life, pulled out of you. In those final seconds, seeing everything that made your life special flash before your eyes. Scanning through the images, hoping and praying to God, and afraid of loosing everything. Out of 7 billion people, I chose you and you chose me. 

I fear that this may be the end of something that would have been one of a kind. A genuine love that many of us are unable to find with each other. Something that would have been magical and free to run wild under the stars.

8 Years, 8 Years

Wow..

What can I say? Today marks 8 years of love, laughter, tears and joy with my wonderful beloved, Josh.


8 years.

I still can't believe how much we've made it through, how much we've conquered and experienced... yet there is still so much! It excites me, excites me beyond words. I cannot wait to begin spending the rest of my life with you.

I love you, I've always loved you and I will always love you.

Higher then the sky.

Forever and ever and always.

Better Late Then Never..

What better place to blog then sitting in an airport terminal on standby for 3 hours?

And let me just say how irritated I am that I arrived 1 minute before my flight left and they would not let me on yet they have called these damn Buffalo, NY passengers like 3 times and the flight is becoming delayed.. They must've been flying first class. Bastards.

It has been quite a while since I have updated on my life. In the past few weeks I have been consumed with work and moving. We moved back to Brandon on the 10th and I absolutely love this apartment. I have never had anything that wasn't facing automobiles and looking at a lake is quite nice. (Now I see what all the fuss is about)
I am really enjoying all the extra space and I know my pups are too. It is nice not being cramped on top of eachother.
We stil have some projects around the house that need done but that's another day.

I am still really enjoying my job here in Brandon. It is challenging everyday but it gives me the rewarding feeling that I am finally where I want to be and slowly I am making some sort of difference..

BTW that is the reason I am at this forsaken airport in the first place.. Flying to ATL yet again for a training course on a program that I have now had 5 months of one-on-one instruction with. But can't complain about free hotel, food and 3 days off work :)

All in all I feel like life is getting back on track and it feels so good to know that my family is right down the street. I don't think I could ever move out of state unless I packed them up and took them with me.

I have been turned onto this obsession with plants. They are now all over my home, inside and outside, I am not sure where it came from but I am obsessed. I will take some photos once all the rooms in la casa are complete.

I will now direct my attention to Fifty Shades Freed.

Until next time..

Yours Truly,

JW